Lately I have not felt like myself, and have not had much motivation to blog. Right now I’m in one of those ruts where it’s very difficult to motivate myself to do anything, especially school work. I’m burned out.
Art school is demanding. No matter how creative you are or how much you love art, you’ll reach a point that you will feel like you’ve been sucked dry of imagination. It’s not that it is hard, but you’ve crossed the line between something you used to do for enjoyment to something you are now doing to make money. Then there is the criticism that makes my eyes roll so far back into my head. It’s not that I can’t handle constructive criticism. I feel it is necessary in life so that we can grow as people. Yet, I do not believe we should change who we are to meet the approval of others nor should we change our artwork to suit the likes of others. There have been several times I’ve had to scrap projects and do them all over again just to meet the satisfaction of a Professor even though I put a lot of effort into my project. Art is subjective, or so I thought. So I began to question myself and if I am doing the right thing. Is my artwork good enough to not be bad, but not good enough to be great? Then my confidence goes out the window and I start doing things the way other people want them rather then what I want to do.
Then comes the peer comparisons. There will always be people who are better at something then you are. As an Artist you must acknowledge and accept this from the beginning. Comparing yourself to others is discouraging. Competing with others is unproductive. Being pretentious and full of yourself is ignorant. Admitting that you make mistakes, learning from them, and continuously working to improve yourself is honorable.
In times of frustration it is important to remember this.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Holiday! Mine was calm and relaxing, thankfully. It was filled with tons of yummy food like my fancy Christmas morning breakfast of orange cranberry french toast with fresh strawberries and blueberries.
I also got some wonderful gifts from my Husband:
Kindle Paperlight – I never really planned on getting a kindle because any digital reading I did, I used my iPad. Now that I have been using my iPad to draw on I am slowly running out of space. I love the convenience of the Paperlight because it is so compact that I can stick it in my purse and carry it anywhere. The screen is so crisp it is almost as if I’m reading an actual book. I love the automatic anti-glare light adjustment feature as well. If you are a big reader, I definitely recommend one since they really are so affordable now.
Wacom Intuos Creative Stylus 2 – I have the first version of this stylus which has more of a rubbery thick tip. Although, it is pretty precise I wanted to try out the new version since the tip allows more intricate details. Unfortunately, this stylus is only compatible with a few iPad drawing programs. Right now I use ArtStudio, but I will be transitioning over to Procreate slowly. Everyone seems to love that program, but I just can’t seem to get the hang of it!
Carnival Coloring Book – I saw this at Barnes and Nobles and fell in love with the artwork. I plan to use to for inspiration rather then an actual coloring book.
The Book of Hearts – Another pretty book I found with different illustrations of hearts that are anatomical designs as well as typical heart shapes.
Pusheen the Cat 2015 Wall Calendar – Do I even need to explain why I got this? Pusheen is the most adorable cat character and I’ll get to see his cute face hanging up at work everyday in 2015.
Christmas Eve we visited Lights in the Parkway, which is a big display of lights throughout one of the parks here in PA. It is beautifully done and here is a short video of it:
I hope everyone enjoyed their Holiday! I’m thankful this week is another short one for me because I took off for New Years.
I’m excited to see everyone’s posts of gifts they received! If you made a Holiday post leave your link in a comment so I can check it out!
If you are a “curvy” girl who often struggles finding clothes that fit properly you MUST watch this video:
Being a “curvy” girl I have experienced all of these struggles firsthand. I’ve been fighting clothing to make it fit as long as I can remember. When I was a teenager in the 90’s (ugh, saying that makes me feel so old), it was extremely rare for any store to carry a pants size larger then an US size 11. All I wanted was a pair of flared jeans! Eventually I resorted to buying mens jeans, which actually fit better then womens, and made my own flared bottoms by cutting them up and sewing pieces of fabric on to make the bottoms wider.
Thankfully, things are different now and many stores carry larger sizes and cuts, but the search for the “perfect fit” still has many pitfalls. I could be a size 14 in one retailers clothing line and a size 10 in another. The size I need is sold out roughly half of the time. Shopping is beyond frustrating at times, but once you find an item that fits your body perfectly, you feel that extra boost of confidence and know that you look amazing!
- If you are shopping online, read the reviews! Most online retailers offer a rating system on items they sell. Many reviewers include their measurements or body type so you can better gauge how it will fit you. In turn, post reviews yourself to help out other ladies.
- Can’t find your size in the store, but it’s available online? Try on something similar at the store in the size your looking for to get a better idea on how it will fit.
- Fabric that provides stretch is your best friend.
I don’t believe in “one size fits all,” because each of us have our own unique shape!
I skipped out on my work’s Holiday party this year because I wasn’t feeling too well. This weekend I have two party’s to attend. My Husband’s work party is on Friday night at a hotel with a sit down dinner. So, I wanted to dress a little fancy, but not over the top. I found the perfect dress from The Limited and got a great deal on some heels from Modcloth.
I decided to go with a black and gold theme when I purchased this dress. Unfortunately, it is sold out online, but may be in stores still. I paid about $80 for it which is a great price!
The shoes I got from Modcloth on a deep discount for $25. Of course they are sold out as well.
Luckily I’ve had a black lace shrug already from when we got married 5 years ago. I hate taking large bag to functions like this, so I’m still not sure what I’m going to do about a clutch. I may check out some thrift stores or Target. You do not need to spend an exorbitant amount of money to look good!
As for make up, I’m going to try to do a black/gold smokey eye. I say try because I have never been able to master the smokey eye look. I’d love to be able to wear fake lashes as well, but when I attempted that last week I had glue stuck to my eyelid for two days. I’m going to go with a nude lip and gold nail polish.
1.) Simply Vera Vera Wang Print Shift Dress This past weekend I needed to do a little shopping for some fall/winter appropriate work attire. I find that Ross, Marshall’s, and Kohl’s always have something decent and reasonably priced. One of my favorites is this Vera Wang dress. The quality of the material is superb as it is silky but still heavier to keep you warm during the season. The sleeves have a strip of sheer fabric running from the wrist to the shoulder. In my opinion tie waists are very unflattering on my body type so, I paired it with a thin light brown belt that I placed just above my waist. (One day I’ll get around to taking outfit photos)
2.) Banana Nutmeg Bread Pudding Candle Do you like Bananas? Do you like Banana Bread? Do you just like things that smell like yummy food that are inedible, but they smell so amazing you want to eat them anyway? THEN BUY THIS. Bath & Body Works always has great deals going on and hand out coupons practically every time you buy something.
3.) BCBGeneration “Anders” High Wedge Booties I need these boots. At first I thought they’d be a bit too much with all the buckles and zippers but after wearing my other black boots to work day in and out I need something with a little more flare. I’m waiting for them to go on sale…tomorrow.
4.) Merona Women’s Knee High Socks (Target) My favorite look right now to go along with fall/winter dress is the legging/sock/boot combo:
Target sells really supper cute knee socks for $3 a pair and then ones that are a bit more fancy (like the ones pictured in my post.) By fancy I mean they are ribbed and have adorable little buttons. Anyway they have an awesome variety of colors and patterns. I may purchase some leg warmers for later this winter, but for right now this is a good substitution.
5.) Lena Dunham’s Memoir-ish ‘Not That Kind of Girl’ You either have to love or hate Lena, there is no in-between. In my opinion she is so incredibly talented and real. I watched her movie “Tiny Apartments” a long time ago and thought that it was meh. It wasn’t bad, it held my attention, but was still very dry. Then I check out the HBO show “Girls.” After a few episodes I was hooked. There are times that I sit there and wonder “why am I watching this?” Yet, I find the interaction between the characters and dialogue hysterical.
Like the show, the book is a bit raunchy at times, funny, serious, and even sad. The book is made up of short essay’s on Lena’s life experiences. Like Lena, I too have had some bizarre experiences throughout the past 32 years. Most of them I would not share with anyone let alone publish them in a book. Yet, after reading about her experiences I feel a little less embarrassed about my own. Lena is brave and empowering. Her honesty and confidence make me re-evaluate my own insecurities.