Stop feeling badly about yourself


Lately I have not felt like myself, and have not had much motivation to blog. Right now I’m in one of those ruts where it’s very difficult to motivate myself to do anything, especially school work. I’m burned out.

Art school is demanding. No matter how creative you are or how much you love art, you’ll reach a point that you will feel like you’ve been sucked dry of imagination. It’s not that it is hard, but you’ve crossed the line between something you used to do for enjoyment to something you are now doing to make money. Then there is the criticism that makes my eyes roll so far back into my head. It’s not that I can’t handle constructive criticism. I feel it is necessary in life so that we can grow as people. Yet, I do not believe we should change who we are to meet the approval of others nor should we change our artwork to suit the likes of others. There have been several times I’ve had to scrap projects and do them all over again just to meet the satisfaction of a Professor even though I put a lot of effort into my project. Art is subjective, or so I thought. So I began to question myself and if I am doing the right thing. Is my artwork good enough to not be bad, but not good enough to be great? Then my confidence goes out the window and I start doing things the way other people want them rather then what I want to do.

Then comes the peer comparisons. There will always be people who are better at something then you are. As an Artist you must acknowledge and accept this from the beginning. Comparing yourself to others is discouraging. Competing with others is unproductive.  Being pretentious and full of yourself is ignorant. Admitting that you make mistakes, learning from them, and continuously working to improve yourself is honorable.

In times of frustration it is important to remember this.


Design Tip Creating a Blog Header

blog_headerGive your readers a good first impression when they stumble on your blog by creating an eye catching header!  A well designed blog header is essential because it is the first thing that people see when they visit your site.  Through a header, you can convey the look, feel, and vibe of your blog.

The two most important things to remember when designing a header is to make sure it is the correct size for your blog and that it is transparent. If you are using a template from WordPress or Blogger each theme should indicate somewhere in the information the header size. For example my header size is 1040 x 250. Whatever your size is, make sure that you design the graphic to be that exact size! Otherwise your header will be too small or large for your page.

Now in this next step you can use whatever design software/website you are comfortable with. In this example I chose to use, PicMonkey, a free photo editing website.

Step 1: Change the canvas size to match the exact size of your footer.


Step Two: Change the canvas color to transparent.


Step Three: Design!


Step 4: Save your new header as a .png image to preserve transparency.

If I had a grey background on my blog this is how the header would turn out:

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Step 5: Upload your newly designed header.

This is such a super easy way to pretty up your blog!


Math fries my brain


I will most likely be on a short hiatus for the rest of this month because of school. It is usually a little difficult to juggle both school and work, but this month it seems impossible. Right now I am tackling the class that I feared the most, math. It has always been my least favorite subject and my worst. Although this is called a “basic” college math class, it seems to encompass way more then the basics. The class touches on geometry, probability and statistics, graphing, algebra, etc. There is also a PowerPoint presentation I must complete for a scavenger hunt assignment as well as a library research project. The scavenger hunt took me HOURS. Those hours could have and should have been dedicated to learning the required material. I’m not too concerned about the research project because I actually get to do something some what creative.

Anyway, this is week two of the class and I already feel burnt out. I tried to approach this class with an open mind. My goal is to maintain my 4.0 and I’m not so sure that is possible at this point. After not taking a math class for about 12 years I feel like all of the information I retained and still know is really all of the information I need to know. Having basic math skills and some knowledge of how to manage money is necessary but the rest of the things you learn in math class do not apply to daily life. At least they do not apply to my daily life.

As I sat down last night and started working on re-learning fractions I thought to myself, “wow, this is not as hard as I remember.” Twenty minutes in I just wanted to rip my hair out. I realized that it is not that I can’t learn math, it is just that I don’t want to. My brain just shuts off no matter how hard I try to concentrate. I transpose numbers incorrectly and find myself needing to pull out the calculator just to check simple problems like 9×7= whatever. Is there such a thing as math ADD? If so, I think I may have it.

Only 20 more days left of this torture.


Men just don’t understand purse obsession

Never in my almost 32 years of existence have I met a man who understood the appreciation women have for quality purses and shoes. I like to splurge sometimes on outrageously priced purses because to me they are just elegant. Honestly, I can’t even explain why I am just drawn to certain bags, but what I can tell you is that a pricey bag is well worth the investment. As long as you take care of them, they last, forever. For example, about six months about I bought a cute bag at Target. It was very durable, at least it seemed to be. I think it may have been about $30 yet less then a week later, it broke.

My last expensive bag purchase was this Michael Kors one.



It is an oldie but definitely a classic. I prefer cross body bags but still fell in love with this one. It can fit plenty of things into it. Since it’s been so long I am now on the prowl for a new baby. This spawned a slight argument with my Husband last night as I fell in love with a Michael Kors bag at our local Bon Ton. I am well aware that because of our current situation, buying a $185 purse is out of the question. My wonderful Husband is busting his butt to try to save the $5,000 I need to pay next semester. Logically, realistically, I know it is so WRONG for me to lust after this, but I can’t help it. I feel like a drug addict.

I was curious so, I did a little research online to find out why other women share the same designer purse fever as I. So I turned to some sources that are fun, but unreliable. The consensus on Yahoo Answers was that many women buy them as a status symbol to make them to feel rich and draw attention. One commenter even went as far as saying if a boyfriend or husband buys his girl a designer bag that means they are nothing but a “gold digging slut.” Um, okay?

My favorite response is by T<3M, “Handbags are not only purchased as an accessory but they are used to carry around everything you need to have with you on a daily basis. Aside from design, It’s most important that handbags are crafted with quality-good fabric, stitching, and design–you can trust the designer labels for better styles too. Purchasing a handbag with these traits ensures that you will get best durability, durability is important because unlike shirts women use their purses over the course of years. When you are carrying your bag you want people to notice how respectable it looks so that’s where fashion comes into it. Women love to shop and because bags are more one-of-a-kind they are more fun to shop for compared to jeans or sweaters.”

I don’t necessarily need a purse to be confident but there’s something about walking down the street with a designer bag that just makes me ooze a bit more confidence. Knowing that my stuff is going to stay put is also a plus and not having to worry about a strap snapping is another added bonus. Plus designer bags are cute and unique looking! Personally, when I see a woman with a exquisite bag I do not think to myself, “oh this women must be trying to get attention and is pretending she’s rich.” I think, “oh my god, that bag is freaking amazing! Where did she get it?!”

Below is a small Polyvore Michael Kors inspiration board I put together in remembrance of purses that got away.

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